Thinking! (for a change)

It's been long since the last blog.Well m sure no one has been "desperatly" waiting for it though!

Today m going to tell a story----I wont be able to tell you the exact story though the reasons being a bit personal. So here it goes :

Just been out of the house for 5 minutes and her cell is already ringing and people no need to guess because its her mum. "yeah mum?" she said as she picked up, "Get me 2 liters of full cream milk,see the date and then buy it. And see if there is some freash full bread."said her mother."Ohk, anything else?"

"naah nothing,get it and come fast!"replied the mother.

This is a regular routin after coming back from college. Naaz,that's her name, meaning pride, though she does'nt feel any such thing any more! Hurt,deeply hurt! Fallen, from a great height! Always been the apple of her father's eye, been many people's fav., "been" always proud of everything that she ever had! But today and for the past 3 months the pride has been shatered, she feels so low, so isolated, as if its worthless being what she is and why the hell was she sent to this "super sentimental" world! Purposelessly?

Dont get confused its just me! The super DEVIL a.k.a. NAAZ!

Today, I have been forced to think weather it is right to lower oneself this much just because 'this one' was left by the 'other one' for a reason that has not yet been found! Ohk I know its a bit confusing so i'll start with TODAY-----

I was sitting in the metro and a couple came to my side and again i was wondering why the bloody hell does god have to send all the boyfriends and girlfriends around ME!???So this one is sayin---

'Yeah u are right Karan, its always been my fault so why are u wanting to meet me? I did not ask you this time! I begged YOU to come back for 2 months but you never listened.'said the girl

'I know i'v been a jerk,but try and understand yaar you know m a bit slow at mind.'said the boy

'Its not a time to joke alright, come straight now. Why did u want to meet me?YOU want all the presents back that you gave me?Then forget it,because I wont!They the only things that are left of you with me and......the memories.'-girl

'What if I say I got a teddy for you today?'-boy

'What the fuck?'-girl

He gives the teddy to her!

'What if I say I got a hide n' seek for you?'-boy

The girl stairs at him.

'What if I say that when i went to the flower shop this morning, and the flowerist said the sunflowers hav'nt arrived yet.'-boy

Tiers start falling from the girls eyes.

'What is I say from the past 2 months the first and last thing that i thought was of you?'-boy

'I dont get it.'-girl turning away.

The boy takes back the teddy and holds it in front of him and says...dear teddy, please tell this idiot that I love her,I loved her and will always do so!

The girl just cant stop crying and I realise i just missed my station.I get off at the next and catch the reverse............

Now how does it relate to ME! I had a break up 3 months back and i never got a reason for it!I tried hard to forget all of it but today I realised that its useless running away! The truth will come to you, YOU need not find it!I can keep loving him even if he does'nt loves me! And if god has some mercy on me I'll get WHAT 'I' deserve!

The boy and the girl deserved each other!

The pride is not hurt! I'm still my father's apple rather mango!

Life is'nt finished, there is a purpose with which a person comes to this earth...it can be bad as well as good! I am in no authority to hurt people just because I was hurt once.

She has reached the shop and calls back her mother as she has forgotten how much milk she was supposed to buy...

'How much milk ma?'

'Bola toh tha,2 liter.'

'Yeah. And ma....I love you!'

Loves in the air ALL the time!

[P.S.: I LOVE YOU]