Sometimes

There are times when I want

Nay, I need 

to be alone, and just hide and cry.

And yet wishing

Someone would see my tears

And try to just

dry 'em

making them precious jems.

....And the tears come faster.

Suddenly all those memories

Lovely memories rush though my mind.

Knowingly yet unknowingly

that angel up there is sad,

because I am...

So I make my night wish

Not to God,

But to my angel.

"Take me, when my time comes,

...and may my time come...

Before my loved one's."

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Tied with a golden thread

Strengthened with love

Brighter than the sun ray

That's friendship.

Unconditional love

Never ending hope

A true hearts' wish

That's friendship.

Enchanting

Fantastic

Exquisite

Cherished

Marvelous

are some words that 'may' describe F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Happy Friendships Day to all my friends.

Long live 'US'.

Someone's watching over me...

I dedicate this song to my angel.....I know who he is and whatever may come, he'll keep the best for me.

Found myself today

Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

That I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even when it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

That someone's watching over

Someone's watching over

Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me.

Thanks To You

'M fine
Thanks to you.

I eat
I talk
I sleep
I survive
Thanks to you.

BUT
As I walk today
On the Highway
searching
for a way
by the way on which
I will stumble upon
someday,
I feel
a feeling I cannot apprehend.
I feel happy, for sure
I feel unsure
too.
A question
keeps buzzing
Am I really happy?
Or
is it yet another illusion?
Which creats confusion!

But yes
I know
I HAVE to be happy
content, high on spirits
as superfluous things
make everything
abysmal.

So,
'M fortunate
to have
whatever I have.

And for all this
I
thank you
the Angel above
guiding my life
and fighting my
obnoxious self.

Dear Angel,
Thanks to you
I survive
that too,
as good luck would have it.

One Love :))

Well people have the ability to love loads of things, people, etc. And in that case I am NORMAL!!I love loads of things...and my list is ENDLESS! So in short I love ALmost EVERYthing in this world! Just a small example before I start off with the main topic, I don't understand how people say that they like this movie or that movie, I mean I like ALL movies I watch, after all movies(except the REALLY bad ones, of course) have their bads and goods...right?I like something or the other about every movie and DON'T like certain things about them as well; take the example of the movie i
watched for the 100th time today THE "DDLJ"!!I mean its SUCH A MELODRAMATIC movie. I hate the way that mother keeps on tell her poor daughter(Simran) that she'll have to sacrifice her happiness and all the crap ALL the time- JUST BECAUSE she is a GIRL !!for god sake! I just can't take that shit! AND the famous K-K-K-K-K-Kiran style of SRK it irritates me BIG TIME! But then this movie is SO beautifully picturised i just can't help watching it again and again!

I hope the point is clear now. :)

I've always loved animals as a mater of fact even insects(that is how weird I can be)!But to confronting them has always been difficult for me. Everyone loves some animal or other, most like dogs, others lions-tigers-leopards-and many other. And 'm NO different in this case! I love the smallest member of the cat family!

CATS! I now some people think cats aren't good. So I'd like to advise 'these' people that just go try and become friends with them and you'll realise how lovable the are!

I'll tell you through my own experience. My relatives have ALWAYS had cats as pets and whenever I went to meet them I used to ask them to PLEASE keep them away from me. I was SO scared of them!I never tried to even go and say a simple hello to them! And then one day my mum got a li'l kitten home! I completely fell in love with him (Chilli, A he-cat). I couldn't help it! And now that he is gone he has taught me all animals are special, it's just US who make them 'seem' scary! He became one of the loves in my life and probably the one I claim to love more than ANYBODY (yes! more than I love my parents)! THIS is Chilli:

All I want to convey through this post is that every animal has feelings, don't drive them away, they just want love which WE have in abundance to give but don't give due to our selfishness and meanness. And 'M telling you your loving them is not a waste as animals can be humans BEST friend...they'll love you UNCONDITIONALLY, without question, without doubt, and without reasoning! They'll JUST love you!

[P.S. :The first two photos are of my relative's cats (Patloo and Saadhu).]
[P.P.S. : I love load of other things as well, just to add, for example chocolates, cakes, ice-creams, watermelons, walnut brownies, the word 'FREAKING', Ron Weasley, Edward Cullen, movies(as one must have guessed by now), etc...etc..etc. ]

A Chapter and A Life

A STORY....

A chapter
and a life.

Nice morning is'nt it? Well, i feel hungry and this strange creature is not even bothered! Are u seeing this god? If not food then I'll hunt for a family i suppose.
A 4 month old kitten was roaming around a temple and thinking all this (i suppose).He is talking to God AND God seems to be on a one to one relation with him!
Look!there comes a same type of creature, she seems to be nice does'nt she? 'Child you just got the right person, but you'll have to deal with the consequences.' said God. So here I go!Ohk now, she's SO strange, she's holding her hands together and standing in front of God.
The kitten goes and stands beside this woman. The woman pats him on his head and walks away.
Ohk I guess this is not gonna be simple(so he starts following the woman).The woman picks him up.
Oh NO!i want to walk!(the kitten struggles and the woman lets him down and he follows her so she pics him again being afraid of dogs.And brings him HOME.)

Hmmmm...not bad. Two more strange creatures and another MORE strange one. I can handle this!(the woman introduces the kitten to all the members of he family..2 daughters and her husband. Then pours some milk and gives it to the kitten.) yummmmmmmmm...FOOD!I love you mummy...

5 months pass...

its SO cold....n m feeling so lazy...and hv'nt got the strength to get up...donno what's wrong...something in my stomach keeps on pinching me...oh mummy its paining!!(the woman tries everything food to medicines...no improvement)...

The kitten died without knowing the reason as to why did he have to suffer so much...and leving the family devastated...every member of the family feels it's their fault...but THAT wont bring the kid back..the kitten came to the family at the time when its members were going through emotional crises...he helped every member...without even knowing what he was doing....I can't speak for all the members of the family..but there is this teenage girl who sees her mother going through her daily chores and a saddening line permanently embeded on her face, a father who would'nt speak out his feelings and an elder sisterwho just can't stop crying.
The li'l baby had made so much difference in thier lives that its next to impossible to put the thought away that their dearest member will never come and sit on their laps, brush against their legs, and not turn the house up side down anymore...
The kitten suffered so much and fought against death till the last moment unaware that its not death calling him, its god calling his angel back 'coz their som family who is in more need of him now....

This kitten was 'CHILLI' my baby,I donno why but i feel like he died coz of me...i never take my stand firmly...only if I had forced my father to take him to the doctor may be that kid would have been sitting right next to me and playing with me..............
We love you chilli, and will always....u made it sure....you were a chapter in our lives but we were your entire life....that is what everyone keeps on tellig us...all i'd like to add to this is that...YOU are the best chapter in our lives and I love to coming back to this chapter and wishing my life would have ended with this very chapter....

[P.S. : That's big time melodrama...but its true...]

[P.S. : I love you]

**I believe in angelz**

Sometimes I question myself>>>>am I so lucky?And sometimes m forced to think>>>>what the hell such a shitty luck I have!

Sorry for using *abusive* lingo!But its MY age, I am supposed to use it!

So the luckiest thing is that I have so many people whom I can say "they" really lurv me despite of everything.

The very first photo is Apurva n' me...I'v told abt her earlier; so no more discriptions!She is a ''all time available'' backup for me! She is always there to help me out even if she does'nt want to! LOL

The second photo is of Sanjukta and me!

One thing that i did not tell about her was that this girl has tolerated me for almost 7 years now! That's the longest period after my parents and my sister!Though we are absolutly OPPOSITE...and till this date after ALMOST 7 years I can't say that I really know her. It's like ,though I know everything (almost) about her still I cannot tell what exactly she thinks. All in all we differ in any and every way!! But still i love her and i guess THAT is what matters and ofcourse the chocolate cake! Correct me if m wrong **wink wink**!

SO, is'nt she pretty?? That's my chubby wobby sister! If I'd say I love her it would be a HUGE insult to her because love seems to be such a tiny-mini word to express the love-hate relationship she and I share. Though she is such a idiot and eww kinda gurl but she is so goddamn USEful..hahaha...what did u expect??hahaha...ohk ahem ahem on the SERIOUS note: she is like the goddess of my live. People cannot se god, I can ! She has made some of the most impossible things possible for me. She is like this shining star in the bright 'moony' night, in which there is happiness and I cannot see it but SHE makes me see it! She can be a dictator though and a big time bitch if in one of her moods! She has these huge mood swings, they are worse than my mood swings (just imagin!).Thank you Sachi di(A.K.A. *PuRpLe PrInCeSs*) for being there ,otherwise it was almost impossible to bring her back to ab-normal after those mood swings!(LOL) But we share a bond in which even if i say 'I hate u' that is b'coz I love her and same the other way round!!

NOW the person who'll be reading this will be thinking if this gurl (my sister A.K.A. Ankur..haha) is SO important in my life why is she AT the end...well this so b'coz it's hard talking about her ,the complexcity of our relationship is so HUGE that words are not enough to talk about her. So to end it I'll say :YOU ROCK ^GrEeN QuEeN^!!

Apart from her and my parents the new member of our family is the someone who brings a smile on my father's face as well (one of the most NOT-possible things) when he is really angry! And that someone is Chilli THE BILLI!!! Our kitten! Her Photo'll tell you how cute she IS!! Chilli has become the life of our whole family in only one month!!

I think that's enough about such a prominent personality!!**wink wink**