Something Special?

It is past my curfew, and still I stand here looking up towards the sky, it is one of those most beautiful nights ever. Stars shining like diamonds on a velvet carpet, moon looking at me as though...
I look down, the city is still buzzing. Strange that people don't realize the beauty around them, In'it? But still some nights are special for some and other nights for others...


I find it really strange when people can pin point their 'special' moments. I donno, I somehow cannot. One can say its a memory problem, BUT I remember THINGS that are special to me. What is it exactly that you define special as? I am sure we can not 'exactly' tell the meaning of special, it is something like love...it means different to everyone. Seriously. NO ONE has the same perception or view towards love. Similarly, Special cannot be defined by just a word or sentence! Just Google it! I assure you, you'll find many meanings to this very 'special' word. Surpassing what is common or usual; something that is exceptional; something out of this world yet present in front of your eyes!


Everything that I have is special to me. As a matter of fact given a chance everything around us is special in some way or another. We see miracles happening everyday, but don't wanna accept them! WHY? Because we are too intelligent for such a 'special' thing? 


The message that I want to send across is that why not give a chance? Might it be a beggar, or a failed student, OR yourself! Everything is SPECIAL we just don't reach out for it! 


The Question remains WHY NOT?


We hear people say 'get a life', probably this is what it means give it a TRY! MAKE it special!






GIVE IT A CHANCE! :))

Confessions of a Sister

Dedicated to my one and only sister. Elder to me (whom many on first sight take to be the younger one).

• I love you.
• I hate you.
• You are the best critic I could ever have.
• I am jealous when people say you seem to be the younger one.
• I never want to be like you.
• I admire your guts.
• I love to steal your belongings.
• I wish I was as pretty as you.
• I miss you.
• I wish I was as intelligent as you.
• I've been imagining your wedding day ever since Shivangi's sister got married.
• I keep doubting if you love me above all...except mum and dad.
• I don't like it when you keep talking on phone and not with me.
• I know no one has ever loved me as much as you have.
• You are the best sister I could ever have had.
• I've never felt the need of a brother with you in my life.

I can not remember all right now, I'll keep updating this. I can assure you there are many more confessions to make...jokes apart.

Love

Guilty...

Mrinal

Life as I wish

Some to love
Some who love

Some to play with
Some to have the real fun with

Some to cuddle
Some to fight

Some peace
Some restlessness

Some to excite
Some  to sooth

Someone to give an honest opinion
Someone to bitch with
Someone to bitch about

Some blessings

Some sense of worth

A 'Father', 'Mother'
AND

A 'Sister'

Not to forget a bunch of reliable 'Friends'

My wish as life...

'Am I asking for much?

OOPS
'M not asking for it

I HAVE IT!!

I Want To Live Again

I feel the fresh air
I feel the wind whispering through my hair
I feel like the morning dew
I feel new

I feel I am born again
I want to live again

No clue where my heart is
No clue where I am
No limitations
No restrictions

I feel I am born again
I want to live again

I feel like running through fields
I feel like climbing top of the hills
I feel like flying with the raven in the sky
I feel like dancing with the moon
I feel like exploring the unexplored
I feel like going beyond the world

I feel I am born again
I want to live again.

I want to find light in the dark
I want to reach out and hold the sun

I want to flow with the river
I want to fall with the waterfall
I want to rise with the wave

I want to zoom like a canon ball
I want to sprint like a leopard

I feel new

I feel I am born again

I want to live again!

Random Things About Me (Part 2)

Here I am again telling, rather blabbering about myself without knowing if anyone is even interested in knowing it. I guess I am doing this for two major reasons:
1. I am trying to understand myself.
2. I want my tini-mini blog to be active untill I get enough time to write the long posts I once used to.

So without any further explanantions lets start with 'myself' :

32. I don't like talking on phone long.
33. I love melodramatic movies.
34. I wonder how someone came love only and only one person at a time. Well as in you know 'boyfriend' kind of love.(Many contradictions coming to this for sure.)
35. I have a major ego problem.
36. I can be irritating without even caring about it.
37. I am desperate and excited for my sister's wedding day. (Strange!? I know, girls are usually desperate and excited about their own wedding, but seriously I can't imagine myself getting married.)
38. I don't like orange candies.
39. I believe I am evil. NOT cruel but evil. =D
40. I am selfish for strangers.
41. I love cotton sarees.
42. I don't believe in the mythical-religious stories. But I do believe in a divine power. Though I must confess I love reading, watching and hearing all these stories such as Ramayana.
43. I want to fall in love with a complete stranger.
44. I don't really know what is my kind of guy but from my past experiences I've realized my kind of guy would be a lean, rich, B.A.D.(it is in capitals because I want to emphasize on this one ), dumb, respectful of elders,  flamboyant, and ready to accept me as I am - without any changes.
45. I love momos.(That is why I eat them up.)=D
46. I don't make friends easily.
47. I might seem shy, innocent, quite, and lovey-dovey to strangers.
48. I get angry really fast.
49. I believe in 'magic'.
50. I don't really hate anyone.
51. Once I get to know someone I stick to them.
52. I don't like tragedies. And my entire course of this year is full of tragedies...trauma!!
53. I adore my best buddies. (I know it is obvious but I just wanted to mention it.)
54. I can like anything! Beleive me! if I can like 'Laga Chunri Mein Daag'- the movie, I can like anything. So say my friends. :)
55. My grammar is BAD!!!
56. I am bad with spellings as well. (Cool now everyone is wondering 'What is this idiot doing in a course like English hons.?')
57. I have a 'twin'. Not the biological one but mentally and philosophically alike twin. ANCHAL. I hope you read this Anchal.
58. Even though Sanjukta (one of my best friend) hardly likes anything in me she IS my best friend.Strange but true.
60. I lost a best friend lately. Well it was coming for a long time but I accepted it recently.(I had 5 best friends before this.)
61. I don't like when people say 'Bye'.
62. I never turn around to see if the person is still standing where I lift them or have they left.
63. I love taking long walks.
64. I prefer face-to-face conversations.
65. I don't like candle-light dinners. The idea just seems too obvious to me. I prefer thunders...and beaches...or mountainhills for 'romance'. But I am not much of a romantic.


Ummm....that's it for today. I hope I did not repeat anything, I don't want to go check it, because my silly super slow computer is frustrating me now. And I want to make one of my past statements clear: when I said 'I don't like Harry Potter' I meant I did not like Harry Potter the character, because I love the series. Its my all time favorite! My school friends and I even called ourselves 'Potter Freaks or Potterish'. And about the character, I am not outrightly saying that I don't like it I am trying to say that I don't like it as much as he is hyped about. I'd prefer Ron over Harry any day! I guess I've made my point clear.

That's it for the time being. :)

Random Things About Me (Part 1)

1. Unfortunately or fortunately so, I miss my sister.

2. Chilli, our kitten, made me understand a new meaning of love.

3. I like the worlds 'thou', 'thee', 'thous't' a lot.

4. I have 4 best-Friends. This might seem awkward to many.

5. I am in the middle of feminism and anti-feminism.

6. I love drinking milk.

7. I love chocolate. This a common fact with almost everyone. I like ALL of them-dark, milk, or whatever.

8. I hate roses.

9. I love sunflowers.

10. I am more close to my father than to my mother.

11. I love Austen novels.

12. I don't like Harry Potter much, my favorite 'Harry Potter' characters would be Ron, Voldemort, Dumbledore and Ginny. I like many other.

13. I like reading period novels.

14. I read a lot, and write less. =P

15. I am not good at expressing myself.

16. I hardly remember any specific thing from my childhood. Everything is a blur. Well I am a forgetful person.

17. I LOVE street food.

18. I am a big time movie buff!

19. I have about 5 celebrity crushes right now. :P

20. I wish to own a house near the beach.

21. My career prospects are absolutly hazy!

22. I love cooking.

23. I like making cards, not for everyone...only special people.

24. I wish Aslan was real.

25. I believe greeks were bastards, well no offence there...I guess it is only a temporary phase...I am reading Homer's Idiad these days and one cannot blame me for having such an opinion. someone has a doubt, read it.

26. Art is my passion.

27. I would like to have a gay friend.

28. I want a 'Barak Obama' for India.

29. I am not intelligent, but smart enough. :P

30. I am studying a subject I never thought of studying. English. And to top this I am kind of enjoing it.

31. I love all colors. But certain shades of pink disgust me.

That's it for now....there'll be more coming up....when I feel like telling. :)

Friendship goes 'off-the-wall'

Warning :This post is absolutely random.

Why do sometimes friends make you feel that YOU are not their friend? Why do friends make you feel alone in traffic? Why is there always a feeling that whenever or wherever you'll turn there 'swine-flu' waiting for you and you cannot be saved?

WHY are these useless questions popping on your mind when your 'supposed' best friend is 'supposed' to be there ALL the time for you?

Well I have no idea why I am writing this but I guess now that I don't have enough courage to blurt out whatever I want to say I'll use my blog to do my work. Usually I go ahead and say whatever I want to say on the person's face. But after a long long time I feel I cannot do my best part! So here I go...I won't mention any name as I am considering that the person I am referring is going to read this SOME day and won't take it badly (the later part is what that is bothering me the most).

Ohkay we don't meet 'everyday', ohkay we are no more in 'same class' or anywhere near it that is to say not even in same college..and don't mind me saying this it's fine with me that I am not as intelligent as you are, but how does it affect our friendship? As I know it is being affected. I have no idea how you feel about me now, you've become so unpredictable these days. I wonder weather you feel the same or not. I am not saying that I might not have changed, I might have as a matter of fact. But what I am questioning is how does all this matter in the end? We were supposed to friends, right? You were supposed to tell me everything first hand. You were supposed to tell me every time whenever you felt down. But you never did, saying that you don't tell people about your feelings...well when did you start counting me in 'people'? Wasn't I your best friend?

Even a simple message or missed call would have sent the message across that you were not fine or whatever the problem might have been! Alright I am what everyone says 'a kanjoos' but believe me whenever my friends have needed me I've always called! There is a whole lot more to say but I guess I put across the message quite clearly for the time being. I don't know what exactly makes me feel the way I do right now, but there are a whole lot of things.

I have not the minutest of idea how are you going to feel when you read this, I know all this is pretty rash...but I just felt doing this as I cannot say it on your face. So please forgive me for everything I said, and for whatever I did tho make you behave the way you do towards me.

Sorry, yet again.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Tied with a golden thread

Strengthened with love

Brighter than the sun ray

That's friendship.

Unconditional love

Never ending hope

A true hearts' wish

That's friendship.

Enchanting

Fantastic

Exquisite

Cherished

Marvelous

are some words that 'may' describe F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Happy Friendships Day to all my friends.

Long live 'US'.

The Golden Friends...with a touch of gray.

Open your eyes

come out in the twilight

Drain in the beauty

and prepare yourself

for the

New Moon tomorrow night.

Dear 'S'

I know how you feel, but can you stop being an ass for ONCE? Why are you so determined to ruin yourself? Can't you see? We are better off without those freaking bitches!

Dear Bitch 'A'

Why the hell do you always want to prove me wrong? There are better ways to speak YOUR mind! But NO you HAVE to make me look like a donkey in a horse race!

Dear Fucking Bitch 'S'

Yes of course there are better ways to make someone understand, but here we are talking about YOU! You are not someone! So now do you get the point?

Dear 'A'

Of I do. You always catch me on my fall.

It is not easy to define friendship. But in all my experiences with friends these were the weirdest (if that is a word, which I doubt). They are the most fascinating pair of friends I've ever seen (though I must say I have not seen much). They are the best of friends, and guess what they are each others worst enemies. I am not sure if I am right in saying that, but so it seems. But what ever may come they have been there for each other, always.

A Unicorn Shines

It's blood saves lives.

A phoenix burns to

Come back to life.

A Centure reads the sky

to unfold the future.

A Creative soul

lives, burns and unfolds

the mystery of Thee.

There's is the best relationship I've ever seen. They are like two different souls yet same. It is like having a best friend, and everything that is not a 'best friend'. I won't leak the names, because if I do I might just betray their trust. Well it is one of my stupid superstitions.

A Beautiful Mind

is hard to find.

A Caring Heart

is always heard.

A Helping Hand

is not slippery as sand.

A creative Soul

is like a morning song.

I love the two creative souls even if I always say I do not. The touch of gray just adds to the spark they create.You two are like the splashes of the cold water in this freaking summer that just adds to the enjoyment list.

[P.S. : TOUCHWOOD]

A world called 'Narnia'

Narnia is a fantasy world created by C. S. Lewis. I am amazed to confess that I like Narnia better than Hogwarts or any other place Rowling's Harry potter.

Narnia is a fantasy world created by C. S. Lewis as the primary location for his series of seven fantasy-novels for children, The Chronicles of Narnia. The world is so called after the country of Narnia, in which much of the action of the Chronicles takes place. In Narnia, some animals can talk, mythical beasts abound, and magic is common. The series tracks the story of Narnia when humans, usually children, enter the Narnian world from 'our world', or Earth.

It talks about many in depth issues which we overlook while reading. The Chronicles of Narnia is set in what seems to be an entirely different world from which we live in. It's creation, witnessed be the evil (the White Witch) , ruled by the sons of Adam and daughters of Eve (humans to be exact) and the talking beasts (the public of Narnia). The novel explores the major problem we face TODAY. Or should I say the history behind the world we live in today and its approaching destruction. The other lands that surround Narnia are :Archenland, Calormen, Eastern Ocean and the less explored places like the underworld, Western Wild, Ettinsmoor, and Bism (below the underworld).

The eventual destruction of Narnia can be seen as the coming end of the 'Earth'. So long ago a novelist in his fantasy probably foresaw this and tried to warn us. He took the approach through fantasy because he was scared that he might be see as insane if he came forward with this theory of world destruction. We did not see it coming until it was on the verge of irreversibility. Species of beautiful animals have gone extinct, the ocean levels rising, mountains cut down, water shortage, dark air, what else do we need to explain the evil deeds that we have done? people were happier back then before the wars, before industrialization! Human's greed has brought him to his death bed. It is not that we have realised the impact even now, because even now we are searching for alternatives and ignoring the nature. We are too busy enjoying our luxurious lives that we forget that tomorrow we wont be alive to enjoy them! Are luxuries more important than our happiness? There is a famous saying 'we search for happiness outside, when the real happiness lies with ourselves'. God cannot do anything if we don't do anything for ourselves, he can only show us the path. The path has been clear for many years now 'SAVE THE NATURE, SAVE YOURSELF'. Have we become so selfish that we don't care for our coming generation? What are we giving them education for, when they wont be alive to have a career!

As everyone says it is still not late. The eventual destruction is written! All we can do it to prolong it. And to give the next generation a better world to live in the best way is, well I wont go into all that, many scientists-socialists-academicians have already given us ways to extend our Earth's life.

~~Live and let Live~~

Re-Discovering Self

I thought

I'd forgotten love

None the less

I thought I'd forgotten myself.

The thunderstorm surging outside

Reminds me the stillness inside.

And when I think of it

'M shocked to realise

I've kept myself closed

Finding myself padlocked on the road of life.

I face the thunderstorm.

I ask it-"What can I do to undo the past?"

It roars.

I get my answer.

I turn to face the 'inside'

I pick the brush that has dried over the year

I choose Red, Green and Blue

I try to shape my thoughts into it

'Not bad'- I think

And another realisation dawns

What I've missed of all

The colors!

I make colors now

Vibrant-Violet.

Soft- Mauve.

Harsh- Forest green.

Adventure- Turquoise.

The tree of life,

full of little lives,

each lived one at a time.

The ocean of love,

full with drops of love,

each drunk at a time.

The mountain of passion,

where the river flows

making its way through trees

to join the ocean.

I Re-Discover the lost self

In doing so I learn

What 'Re-Birth' is all about.

'M born

AGAIN.

True Colours

Fake, I shouldn't be.

Wannabe, I might be.

Original, I want to be.

No.No.

Not a fake surely.

No.No.

Not a wannabe.

I 'm what I was,

what I 'm, and

what I want to be.

Evil?Possibly!

Angel! They call me!

Different 'm truly.

Laughing? Funny, I might be.

But one thing is sure:

Original, I want to be.

I know

I 'm what I want to be.

Thanks To You

'M fine
Thanks to you.

I eat
I talk
I sleep
I survive
Thanks to you.

BUT
As I walk today
On the Highway
searching
for a way
by the way on which
I will stumble upon
someday,
I feel
a feeling I cannot apprehend.
I feel happy, for sure
I feel unsure
too.
A question
keeps buzzing
Am I really happy?
Or
is it yet another illusion?
Which creats confusion!

But yes
I know
I HAVE to be happy
content, high on spirits
as superfluous things
make everything
abysmal.

So,
'M fortunate
to have
whatever I have.

And for all this
I
thank you
the Angel above
guiding my life
and fighting my
obnoxious self.

Dear Angel,
Thanks to you
I survive
that too,
as good luck would have it.

I got tagged...yet again...I love this

1. Last drink: Water....loads of it!
2. Last phone call : Manan...my BEST pass time!!
3. Last text message: Sanjukta..we were planning to go to CP 2moro...bt the plan gt canceled...
4. Last song you listened to: 'aj mera jee karda' from Monsoon Wedding

5. Last time you cried: Today morning!

Have You Ever...

6. Dated someone twice: NO! lol....i had enuf once...

7.Been cheated on? Donno....
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? YEH!
9. Lost someone special? YUP....
10. Been depressed? Who has'nt been???tell me ONE!
11. Been drunk and threw up? No, but I so wanna TRY once.

Four Favourite Colors...
12. Blue
13. Green- ANY shade, I am crazy!
14. Purple
15. Black - The eternal Classic.

Firsts...
16. Made new friends: Of course. I can't live without makin frndz...
17. Fallen out of love: Yeh...i guess so
18.Laughed until you cried: Many a times!!!
19. Met someone who changed you: Yeh, Chilli.
20. Found out who your true friends were: Yes. It took some time but yeh I did...

21. Found out someone was talking about you: YEH!!!That i have far TOO much attitude...lol...and ask my frndz they'll tell u...i dnt hv a mili gram of it!

Have You...

22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Naah
23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life:On Blogger? only two...
24. How many kids do you want to have: ah...huh....*worried*
25. Do you have any pets: Had one...he died...*sniff*....
26. Do you want to change your name: Never!!!Its so Unique!!!
27. What did you do for your last birthday: Naah...had a BIG puja ....
28.What time did you wake up today: 9:35 A.M.
29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Facebooking....
30. Name something you CANNOT wait for: TO GET PEPPERS!!!(new cat)
31. Last time you saw your father: When he went to sleep, 10:00 P.M.
32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Nuffin....m happy with what I am...
33. Most visited web page: Blogger, Google, FB, and You Tube.

What's Your...
34. Name: Mrinal

35. Nicknames: Minnie, Mri, Mrinz, Chots....etc...

36. Zodiac sign: Leo...:)
37. Male or female or transgender: Female
38. Elementary: Ryan International School , Noida
39. School: Somerville School , Noida
40. Colleges: Indraprastha College for women, Delhi University.
41.Hair color: Brown mixed with black.
42. Long or short: Long.
43. Height: 5 feet 2 inches
44. Do you have a crush on someone? concidering celebrities....loadsa them!
45. Ever been in love? Dunno..
46. Piercings? Four...one in left ear....Three in right ear.
47. Tattoos? No....but want to have it...someday...
48. Righty or lefty: Righty
49. First surgery: None..
50. First piercing: yeeeeeeeeeks...hw many times do i hv to tell it??
51. First best friend: hmmmmm....Sanjukta!
52. First sport you loved: does stapoo count??
53. First pet: Chilli.
54. First vacation: Nahan, Himachal pradesh.
55. First concert: None yet....tragedy always follows me...:((
56. First crush: donno...i noe its strange..bt seriously..donno...

Right Now...
57. Eating: Nothing!
58. Drinking: Water...yet again.
59. I'm about to: Waste time.
60. Listening to: Silence...pin drop!
61. Waiting for: Adventure....

Your Future...
62. Want kids? Yes
63. Want to get married? Yeh
64. Careers in mind? Completely clueless....

Which is better with the opposite sex...??
65. Lips or eyes: Eyes
66. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
67. Shorter or taller: Taller
68. Older or Younger: My Age
69. Romantic or spontaneous: Both...planned romatinc is useless...:P
70. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both...a hanging belly doesnt look good...and good arms are must!!
71. Sensitive or loud: BOTH!
72. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
73. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker!

Have you ever...??
73. Kissed a stranger: :-O
74. Lost glasses/contacts: not lost!They always on my eyes and i love them!

75. Sex on first Date: :-|
76. Broken someone's heart: Not that I know of!
77. Had your own heart broken: Yeh....in psychological sense...other wise its still intact!
78. Been arrested: Nah
79. Turned someone down: Matlab?go out types???Yeh.
80. Cried when someone died:Yes. Chilli.
81. Liked a friend that is a girl? Haaan! , but as a friend ofc.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
82. Yourself: Tough one!
83. Miracles: Yup
84. God: Umm..devine power??yes
85. Love at first sight: Donno....
86. Heaven: Yaaaaa...
87. Santa Claus: Jingle bell, Jingle bell...lol...yeh!
88. Kiss on the first date? :-O
89. Angels: Yep.
90. Devils: Angels and Devils are different sides of same coin...
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
91. Is there one person you want to be with right now?... Yea.
92. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Had only one boyfriend...till date...so no question of double timing.
93. Wanted to kill someone ever? Hell yeh!
94. Among you blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? : None.

95. Committed a blunder and regretted later? : Many times!
96. Wanted to steal your friend's boyfriend / girlfriend? : :-O......such stupid questions!

ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR...
97. White: My T-shirt
98. Black: Jeans
99. Red: have loadsa red shirts...donno how come...:P
100. Pink: yuk....i have only ONE pink wear...a shirt..that I NEVER wear!







Phew.....over already???I thought its never gonna end...ne way...nice tyma pass...

Thanks Appuz...YOU always help me out...i was BIG TIME bored...